Lynn’s 2003 – A Faith Journey with God

Just tot of sharing extracts of my personal walk with God in my 2003. Some of the stuff i managed to fish out from my journals ... pretty long ....

here goes:

Lynn’s 2003 – A Faith Journey with God

Been in FCBC close to 2 years now. Experience is v different from the church (Charis Methodist) where I came from. Both places have helped me grow in different aspects. In Charis, God spoke to me more thru the Bible. Whereas in FCBC, I learnt to move in the things of the Holy Spirit. First spoke in tongues at the Encounter. More sensitive to the Lord’s Presence. By His grace, I’ve also learnt more about love, about building a spiritual family in the cell group.

Below are some of the major highlights of my 2003:

SARS Prayer meetings (Apr):
the Lord’s Presence was SO STRONG during this period. Started to have conversations with God almost literally. Learnt and practiced interceding for hall mates, working hand-in-hand with the Holy Spirit. Felt the Lord raising me up as a vessel to be used by Him. I told God in my heart that I will serve Him. He heard and remembered. (Read on and you’ll know)

Sisterhood (May):
God surfaced a need in my life – to have sisterly bonding – after a cell meeting where Carolyn prayed for me. Determined to love and placed my hope in God. Desire for openness and transparency went hay-wire. Confessions of the heart turn “fatal”. The start of a long tirade of heart aches, anger, pride, jealousy … etc. And of overcoming these emotions, healing and moving on to love. Also thank God for a unique sisterhood that was later formed between me, eleen and jieying.

Shopping Spree (June):
Mum bought >$500 worth of working clothes for me at IORA. Super touched by her love. V blessed that Dad din blow his top when I thought he would.

1st Ladies’ Meeting (July):
Felt v privileged to be included in the discipleship under Huisi. A form of affirmation that God heard my desire to serve Him, to be used by Him. 1st July also marks the 1st day of work at Income.

Freak Loss of stuff (July-Aug):
1st incident – lost MD + HP at swimming pool. Felt robbed. God’s Presence came down powerfully as I picked up the guitar to worship Him. Job 1:21-22 greatly encouraged and lifted my spirit. Also revealed younger bro’s love. Bro came for my rescue in the pouring rain at the pool as I couldn’t get transport home. 2nd incident – lost the 2nd HP – my mum’s. Felt that I had failed to guard the thing that my mum entrusted to me, for whom she sacrificed her convenience. Super sad. Fear of confessing to mum about the incident and facing the music. A fresh lesson learnt: Lynn – the gal who never apologized – apologized to mum. There was no riling. Only heartfelt empathy from mum. Touched by mum’s love once again.

The Challenge to Love dad once again (Aug):
The start of a 2nd track of emotional issues to tackle, and for God’s healing to come.

Worky work (Sep):
Finally touched down in the Actuarial Dept (previously I was at servicing). Thank God for my 2 friends with at the dept. Made more gal friends as well. Boss is great and WAS cute :P High hopes and aspirations. Told boss to give me substantial “real work” to do. (u can say I asked for it man). Managed to ra-ra the dept by seemingly injected energy into the workplace.

The “storm” finally broke out at home (Oct):
Lynn and dad engaged in battle of shooting words. Much anger and tears. Lynn’s old self of rebelliousness emerged. Showed mum’s protective love. The love of the family members of 1 John 3:16 was displayed evidently at Botanic Gardens. V touched by their immediate response to my SOS sms.

The period of a shepherdless 1 John 3:16 (Nov):
God confronted me. No more avoidance. No more sweeping things under the carpet. Time to look at problems in the cell more objectively. Time to exercise sincere love for the bros and sis, to round up the saints together and PRAY!

Super stressed-up Lynn at work (Nov):
The beginning of stress from the project I’m undertaking. Bad sleeping nites and early wakeys. Fear, insecurity, internal and external expectations.

School of Modern Levities (SML) (Nov):
A great break from work. Encounter God daily in the 3 days during worship. About surrendering to God totally. About being a living sacrifice for Him. Vividly felt God telling me to sign up for SM2. Gladly obeyed.

Visit to the Encounter Weekend (Dec):
God spoke to me in regards to harboring sins of the refusal to love my dad. His words pierced thru my heart just like the nails pierced His hands depicted in the movie. I confessed and repented there and then. Another fresh start of working things out in the relationship with my dad.

Lynn gave way to work pressures (Dec):
Mounting pressures from boss. Crazy project datelines. Truckloads of work. Limited time and know-hows. Gal in me surfaced. Went toilet to pray and in the end hid in cubicle to cry. All emotions broke loose at Leaders’ Meeting on a Tues nite after work. Tremendous feeling of defeat. God was there. Much word was released. Vision of the “opened door” by Huisi. To walk thru’ the door boldly, knowing that God is with me. There is no shortcut. No exemptions. Felt that the Lord gonna pour out even more of His love. In the midst of these, kind and supportive colleagues, and praying bros and sis in Christ are really like angels sent by God.

Looking into 2004 – A Journey of Molding and Preparation for Greater Things (Watch out for the next episode :p)

In a nutshell:

* Solidifying my Foundation thru SOL
* Looking forward to serving God in the vocalist ministry (as the Lord leads)
* Living out love
* Missions?